why?

"why" is definitely one of my most frequent and perhaps favorite questions. i ask it of myself as well as of those around me all the time. i guess one could say that i am a fairly curious individual (perhaps that's why i was the recipient of the "most inquisitive award" in my sixth grade class). anyways, lately, i have had quite a few "why" questions, but i feel that i have narrowed it down to one main topic of interest, namely--"why aren't i more like jesus?" why isn't every single aspect of my life revolved around jesus? why am i still all about me so much of the time? the more i think about this whole thing, the more i realize that i really want my life to be all about jesus and not all about me. seriously, who really wants their life to be all about them? after awhile, that gets pretty sad, no matter who you are or how amazing your life is. i was created by a god who intended for me to spend my life worshiping him, my days loving him, serving him, and caring for others. my life was never meant to be about me. if only the truth in my head could seep into my heart in a richer and more complete way. i guess that takes time, discipline, and most importantly the holy spirit. so glad that god is patient and willing and that even in those times where i don't "feel" like the truth is real, i can still cling to god's word and his unchanging character. one thing i love about transition times is that i appreciate god's steadfastness so much more. after writing all this, i kinda feel like it's a little deep for an initial post. oh well. maybe i'll get better at this blogging thing over time...